The 16-year-old wrote about an attack in his essay that could appear to some to have foretold his death.
“I’ve been stabbed, three times in the chest, twice in the back, once in the gut for good measure.
“The pavement feels so very cold on my so very punctured back. Everything feels cold. Numbness persists. As I stare up at my killer-to-be he feels not the slightest measure of remorse at what he has just committed. Instead his dark smile sickens me in ways I couldn’t imagine.”
The child described feeling lonely even surrounded by those who loved in hosipal. He also described the feeling of freedom from heaven.
Ben once appeared on the ITV drama The Bill.
He is believed to have been an innocent victim of a fight that had gone from a pub in Islington to the street.
A group of minors had been told to leave Shillibeers bar just before 2 a.m. on Sunday.
Ben was stabbed at some point in the aftermath by as many as four separate young attackers. He suffered several stab wounds to his neck and chest. As the son of Birds of a Feather actress Linda Robson, Louis held him young Ben bled to death.
Ben’s family read his essay after his death and decided to allow the public to hear his words.
“I can only wonder whether I deserve to die here, now. Was it all for a reason? Who can say?
“As my mind becomes inflamed with questions I can only feel the pain pass over me like a shadow. Blood escapes my wounds. Blood once destined for greatness now seeps into the drains.”
“I knew I was gone and couldn’t ever come back. I just wished I had the strength to say goodbye. I was dead now.”
The world has had a very talented youth torn from its arms. Heaven has received an author.
1 Comment
July 3, 2008 at 3:51 am
That is so sad, and so amazing.
Your closing statement was very powerful-”The world has had a very talented youth torn from its arms.”
I’ll have to read more of your posts.
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